Archive for November, 2009
The New Andrew Fashion Blog
Welcome to the new Andrew Fashion Blog, basically now know as Andrew Fashion The Renovatio. Renovatio means “a total rebirth” in Latin. I feel it’s time for a change, a new beginning, time to take my frustration and turn it around, I’m going to vent it all, and let it all out. I’m going to release my problems, my rage, my feelings, my anger, my frustrations, my happiness, my ideas (to an extent– damn thieves), my passions, my brains, my no-brains, everything I have to say will now be publicly available. From my problems and frustrations to my knowledge, dangerous? Maybe? I can honestly only think of a few passions that I have anymore, I have a lot of interests, but only a few passions…
My Passions
1. Money
2. Success
3. Fame
4. Women & Sex
You may be wondering, why I don’t have family in there, well I don’t have a family I am close with, I have a mother I love, but I have always been the on-my-own type of a guy, and I do hope to build a family some day. Also, yes, women and sex, why fucking lie? This is my blog, I love women, and I love sex just like any man out there, so I might from time to time blog about it. I’ve been single for half a year now, let’s spice things up. Now, I’m not saying I’m a slut, I don’t just sleep around, and especially not with just anyone, but the simple fact is, I love women and sex. So in a sum, I will be blogging about money, success, fame, women, and sex.
My Interests
1. Photography
2. Technology
3. Trying to stay in shape
4. Media (Movies, Music, Games, etc…)
5. Reading
I do love photography a lot, but I don’t feel it’s my passion. I love technology, anything related to tech, toys, cars, games, tv’s, computers, speakers, anything that you can turn on and off, haha. I am addicted to having the best of anything technology. I am also a Apple Boy now, MAC products fucking rock. So I might be blogging about MacBook Pro’s and hacking iPhones for the nerdy side. I am a huge health freak at heart, I don’t always follow my diet, but it is something I feel extremely strong about. I might be posting my diet results, diet tips, work out results, etc… From time to time I might be a critic, and review movies, games, and share new music I find. Now something I don’t do enough of lately, is read, I notice I always read so much more when I have a girlfriend, but when I don’t have a girlfriend, I don’t read as much, annoying. I need to read more, but I love investing, business, self-help, motivational, biographies, etc… type of books.
So it’s safe to say my blog niche would be personal, photography, tech, sex & women, money, and self-help/motivational type of material?
Mr Fashion signing out!
QOTW: How Do You Get Over Problems?
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Question Of The Week
Okay, so my question is this? When you feel betrayed, or you go through a break up, or you don’t get what you want, or you get hurt pretty bad. Losing everything, or some form of a depression… How do you deal with it? How do you get over it?
The Secret: The Law of Attraction
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The Secret is a two hour long movie based on one theory, “The Law of Attraction.” I find it be insanely accurate due to the nature of what has happened to me, and what I have gone through, which you can read about from my previous blog post- How I Made 1.8 Million. Everything from the age of 14 till this very moment, makes complete sense of how I ended up here based on this theory. Basically, what you think is what you get. Not necessarily what you want, but what you think… I included the trailer, the first 20 minutes of the movie, and a visualizer at the bottom. I strongly suggest giving it a chance. It really is a great video, a bit cheesy at some parts, but what motivational movie isn’t some what cheesy? Especially an interview/documentary style movie. A lot of people think it’s a big sales pitch, but what isn’t now a days? If any body wants to mass produce a product and get exposure, it umm costs money? Not everyone can afford to be a NPO.
Enjoy the clips, and let me know if you agree with the “Law of Attraction.” Have you seen it happen in your life yet? Because it sure as hell is happening in mine.
The Secret: Trailer
The Secret: First 20 Minutes
The Secret Visualizer
Tony Robbins: Why We Do What We Do
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I’ve always found Tony Robbins to be an amazing speaker. I love his work, his theories, and what he has to say. This 20 minute clip from TED is incredible. Why we do what we do, and how we can do it better. He goes into detail about why are successful people doing what they do. What makes the difference in the quality of peoples lives? What is that shapes us? Well Tony digs into it, and I just find this speech of his very lifting and interesting. Check it out, let me know what you guys think of it?
Quote #4: Infatuation
When you develop an infatuation for someone, you always find a reason to believe that this is exactly the person for you. It doesn’t need to be a good reason. Now in the long run, that’s just the dumb kind of irritating habit that would cause you to split up, but in the haze of infatuation, that’s just what you been searching for, for all these years.
Young & Stupid: How I Lost My Millions
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I am starting a new category, called Young & Stupid, it’s a struggle I went through, it’s a depression I am currently going through, a big lesson I learned at a very young age on my own. I am writing a book on everything I went through, how I did it, how I lost it, and how I got it back, it’ll be a semi short book 100-150 pages… But for now the category on my blog, will be a collection of stories and lessons I’ve learned, and to help me realize myself. Now that it’s been a few years, it can be a lesson or a reminder to myself.
Anyways, this is a question I get a lot, and it’s funny, people in the back seat always say… “I would of done it so different, I can’t believe you spent all your money, blah blah blah.” Okay, I’m sure you would of right? People on the outside always think they are the smart ones till their in the drivers seat, especially when it comes out of no where, self made, young, and stupid. No financial education, no family, no father, and a full time working mother. I do wish I would of done things so different, I’d literally be a multi-millionaire right now, but what’s done is done, lessons learned, and moving on. I highly recommend reading How I Made 1.8 Million first.
So where did my millions go, and why am I at the bottom now? Why have I lost everything, and why the hell am I in debt, that’s honestly a good question, this will be an eye opener for me too, because I will be revealing and trying to reminisce where I put my money. Judge me how you want, say what you want, but try to keep the comments some what respectable. You’re entitled to your opinion on how everything went down, so let’s find out where my money really did go?
Money Earned (Approximately)
Here is the checks that were paid to me via Yahoo.
Here is the money earned via Google.
Total Yahoo/Google Earnings: $1,833,705
I also sold 3 companies, I sold MySpaceCity.com for $140k, and hit to split that with a partner, so I made $70k, I sold MySpaceSupport.com for $75k, and PerfectionApparel.com for $25k.
Total Earnings: $2,003,705 – I also made various income from banner ad companies such as ValueClick, CPX, TribalFusion, etc… Probably another 50-100k…
New Total: $2.1 Million’ish (I thought I made around 1.8M, lol)
Expenses
Taxes paid personally, $400k
Taxes withheld from Yahoo, $50k
SEP-IRA, $10k (weak I know)
Partner in Canada, I think around $250k
Employees, maybe around $30k
Site redesign, $20k
Drivable Investment, $120k
beModel Investment, $8k
Attorney transaction fee for website sales, $20k
CPA, $10k
Average monthly mortgage + utilities for 4 years, $4k x 48 months = $192k; This includes my mortage, san diego, los angeles, just imperative bills.
This is all of the expenses that I can think of that were basically imperative for me to do…
Total Imperative/Semi-Imperative Expenses: $1,110,000
Money Left: $990,000
So apparently I blew 1 million dollars in cash… Time to figure out where it really all went… Now there is so much more I could of done with this 1 million I had in cash, lmfao, honestly, I could of purchased a 30 unit apartment building with 300k down, 100k in hedge funds since I would be an accredited investor, invest in a good company, and possibly start another business of my own, and be sitting in Hawaii sipping pina coladas… But I didn’t do anything to smart with that 1 million unfortunately, I attempted, but failed to do so… Let me tell you though, it is absolutely the best feeling being able to do what you want, how you want, when you want, where you want…
Where could my money have gone?
Alright, honestly, I have an idea of where it went, stupid shit of course, but it’s hard to believe I went through 990k and managed to keep myself in debt, shopaholic I guess. Laugh out loud, ugh, how is that possible. Let’s start with the obvious expenses.
My house, $93k
BMW 2006 330xi + mods, $60k
BMW 2006 M6, $120k
Nissan Titan, $40k
S13 240sx Drift car + mods, $15k
House upgrades; venetian paint, $80k
House upgrades; basement, $40k
House upgrades; landscaping, $30k
House upgrades; garage, $25k
House upgrades; library, $15k
Vegas, roughly $30k
Strip Clubs, oh godddd, ummm, $20k?
Trips, LA, New York, London, Disney World, Hawaii, ummm…. $20k easily…
Fixing wrecked M6 cash, $40k
Fixing wrecked 330xi cash, $15k
Birthday parties for Rose and I, $15k
Bruce’s birthday present, $5k
Helping a friend, $15k
1997 BMW 540i for friend, $9k
Old jeep for friend, $5k
Photography stuff, $50k
Obvious Totals: $742k; umm wow… LOL, this is starting to become a little more clear now…
Now if I am mistaken, that leaves me with like $248k cash, now there is a lot of non obvious expenses, food, girlfriend, clothes, toys, random shit, over the last 4 years, let me think… Now after all these retarded expenses, I could have bought a car, a smaller house, and invested the rest… WTF? This is just upsetting me, looking at this list, I see me being stepped on, walked on, and helping people way to much. The only explanation for the time being I can think of for the remaining $248k is just pure bullshit over the last 4 years… Like I said, clothes, toys, trips, expenses on trips, girlfriends, toys? Ugh, the pain!
Conclusion
The obvious lesson here is don’t act on impulse. I’ve always been an impulsive, adhd, I want it now type of guy. So the money coming in every month, felt like I was on top of the world, felt like I couldn’t go wrong at this point, I mean fuck, I was young pulling in over $100k a fucking month. So, I was Young & Stupid and I spent my money foolishly, not ever thinking of investing. I thought I would save later, but that never happened, it was to late. They money only came in for approximately a year, and then it stopped. I got cut off from the company, and then my site fell of the map because of a huge SEO mistake. So everything was butterflies, then poof, out of no where, it was gone. I was still 18 too, all I knew was how to build websites, program in almost any web language, and how to spend money. I’m sure everyone knows now, especially at my age, how to spend money wisely, and how to invest, at least I hope so. I learned the hard way, and lived the high life for a short few years, it was pure ecstasy for fucking sure. There is nothing like the uncertainty of what’s going to happen, and the certainty of having it all. I could do anything at any given time, I could rent a Jet, I could of bought 3 lambos in cash. I could of bought 1 house, 1 lambo, and also purchased a 30 unit apartment building, and be set for a pretty good amount of time just from that apartment building alone… One solid commercial investment, I would of been fucking set. I was blinded by money, it ruined my habits, it ruined me, I worked my ass off, and now I think it comes easy. I grew a habit I am trying to break out of, it’s called “The Art of Doing Nothing,” it doesn’t work so well, trust me. Ever since I made all my money, I’ve outsourced everything, and have grown to be insanely lazy… Lazy in a sense of just wanting to hire someone else to do it for me…
I need to take control, and do shit myself now, if I want to reach the top again. I have to do what I did in the first place, spend every waking second working, busting my balls. Money does buy happiness, money buys time, time is wealth, wealth is being happy. If you have the time to do anything, having fun, loving your family, loving your significant other, whatever it is you would like to spend time doing. Money brings it to you. So I tell myself, and I tell you, come up with a vision, build a company, and don’t stop, be so persistent, people think you’re crazy, be so persistent, people will say you work way to much, work till they called you a fucking nerd. My entire life I was a nerd, I wasn’t popular in high school, but I sure built an image in the real world. I had a taste of the high life, someone is testing me, and I won’t fail this test. And neither will you, if this is what you want, if you want to be rich, be rich with me 
Let’s get our own jet, buy our own island, buy a loft in Dubai, spoil our lovers, and live life to the fucking fullest.
Persevere Please… Let me know what you think, comments are appreciated <3 Mr Fashion…
Young & Stupid: How I Made 2.5 Million
Revised: This article was originally “How I Made 1.8 Million,” but after adding everything up, I realized I made about 2.5 Million, that’s why the title changed.
This blog is to explain how I made 1.8 million (rough amount pre-tax) on my own, what I did with it, and how I lost it, and how I plan to get there again. This will be a story of facts, true events, and possibly more… This story is to be a reminder of myself that greatness can be achieved by anyone, and hopefully to inspire you and maybe inspire myself again. If you keep up with any of my blogs, you can tell I am a venter who has lost his Mojo. So let’s dig in to some of the details…
July to October 2005
Wow it’s hard for me to even believe it was this long ago? Four years ago I guess… Ugh, how time goes so quickly… July through October was where I was busting my ass off, literally, like you see in the movies, day and night programming. I was barely 18 years old now, just turned 18 in May 2005. I just moved to my 2nd apartment complex ever. My first roommate was Michael Bale, a friend I have had around since elementary school. Him and I have always had the same interests in making tons of money on the internet, ever since early high school, including having Counter-Strike 1.3 in common, haha. Him and I went our seperate ways for a little, and I moved in with “Name Hidden For Privacy”, my 2nd apartment as I just stated. I basically gave him free rent, food, etc… if he agreed to help me work on my websites. Photoshop websites, art community websites, myspace sites, etc… I had a few photoshop sites, and I forget the names to them, a humor website (thehumorworld.com), and iDesignThis.com an art community. I have always been a website guy, programmer, and entrepreneur at heart. I literally spent every waking second on the computer building websites, drinking 12 packs of soda every single day, fucking literally. I could down a 12 pack of any type of soda quicker than any human on this earth, guaranteed.
Keep in mind, I dropped out of high school because I hated it, and wanted so badly to make money off the internet via Google Ads, banner ads, any type of internet advertising, because I knew it was there, I made small amounts of money off my photoshop websites, $20-$150/day depending on how well we did or how much work we put into it. This is how I was paying rent and for food, barely making enough to cover rent. Talk about stressful, living off internet revenue, not a stable job when your small time on the internet. This is where I picked up some momentum, I sold iDesignThis.com for $2000 cash on Sitepoint.com. Now this was my first website I have ever sold, and I built the entire thing myself, well, I lied… “Name Hidden For Privacy” designed the interface, and I programmed the entire community, front-end to back-end. I forgot to mention, I did get a few small side programming jobs as well that paid, a buddy of mine in New York got me a few small jobs doing PHP/MySQL work.
So, I saw a MySpace website called chasebadkids.net, and I was so into MySpace, it was obvious to myself I needed to build a MySpace site. I’ve always built support, help sites, for some reason I just liked to help people out on the internet. So I purchased MySpaceSupport.com, “Name Hidden For Privacy” actually gave me the domain idea, and built the first few user interfaces for MySpaceSupport.com, and of course I spent every waking second programming the site, building the profile editor, the tools, layouts, etc… “Name Hidden For Privacy” helped me a pretty great deal with designs as well. Now I had Google Ads on this website, and was making only a few bucks a day off the site. This is when I got into MySpace Whoring, when posting bulletins and having a shit load of friends actually meant something. I still have 4 accounts with 30-60k friends each, means nothing now, but back then…. Big accounts were fucking gold mines, it took me hours and days of whoring to get all the friends I had, it was like building the most insane online image ever, everyone knew who I was, it was crazy… I would slowly go from 1k, 2k, 5k, to 30k, to 50k friends in a few months, I was in chats with big MySpace Whores, even a few times I ended up in chatrooms with Chris Crocker, Forbidden, etc… It’s funny as hell to think about how big they are now…
So I started paying MySpace Whores to post bulletins for my site, and every time they would post a bulletin for me, my traffic would spike huge, naturally my site would grow and spread via Links, word of mouth, bulletins, SEO, and oh it did. My site grew faster than any website I have built in my entire life of being on the internet… I started making $100-$350/day easily with Google Ads, and then the magic month came…
November 2005
I switched from Google to Yahoo Ads. I remember this night like the I know the back of my hand… Michael Bale came over, and it was obvious I was doing better, my close friends knew I started making decent money now. The night he came over, I switched to Yahoo Ads, and in approximately 4-8 hours, I don’t know how long we were bull shitting around, but that night, my Yahoo account showed I made $2000 that fucking night. I was hysterical, freaking, saying wtf, there is no way. But there was, and it was real. Naturally my site kept getting bigger and bigger. I made $100,000 in November, and since Yahoo was a Net 45-60 company…
January 2006
I received my first check for One-hundred-thousand dollars around January 15th… My life was changed, it was real, the check was in my hand, I showed everyone, my friends, my step dad, and of course the bank. It took 10 days for the bank to clear it, but after the first one, they cleared every other one instantly.
February 2006
Bought my first car in cash, 2006 BMW 330xi black on black, all options, paid $49k cash after tax, another $3k for plates and registration.
March 2006
Bought my first house in Littleton, CO. I put $80k down, $11k in closing costs, the house cost me $420k. I met Rose, we fell in love. I flew her to Hawaii last minute, we made the decision to go that night and bought the tickets that night to leave the following morning, 16 hours before departure, and my first trip ever overseas. We played UNO on the plane, cute right? Money does buy happiness, people who disagree are either A) Poor, B) Stupid, C) Envy the rich, D) All of the above
December 2006
I was unstoppable, rich, had a girl who loved me for me, my own house, my own car, an 11 foot Christmas tree, and spoiled the shit out of her. Probably spent 3-5k on her just for Christmas, not including the 5k photoshoot I paid for with Michael Vincent.
April 2007
I flew to Miami with Rick, and his friend to completely give MySpaceSupport.com a face life, this was the month and the year that destroyed me. I didn’t know a lot about SEO. Did a complete site face lift, code restructure, URL Rewrites, etc… When you have a site that is #1 for a very competitive term on Google and Yahoo search engines… You can’t just change your site completely, changing the URLs killed my page rank, my authority, any power my site had, was dropped completely, and I fell off of the search engines. 40% of my traffic was from search engines, 10-20% direct, and the other 40% from MySpace Profiles. I spent approximately 15-20k in the redesign, and it made me lose hundreds of thousands of dollars. Leads me to believe, “If it isn’t broke, don’t fucking fix it.”
August 2007
Moved to San Diego with my ex-gf Rose for 6 months, then to LA for 6 months. Lost a lot of money, and wasted a lot of money on expensive rent.
August 2008
Moved back home to CO into my house, came up with the idea of beModel.com with Jamie.
April 2008
I sold MySpaceSupport.com on April 17th because it just kept dying, and getting worse, ever since the SEO drop, I was never able to get back to the top, traffic kept dying… I sold it for 75k cash.
Conclusion
Have you ever heard of “The Secret?” It’s a movie based on one theory, one law, one rule, The Law of Attraction. Let me tell you, my entire life, well ever since I started building websites around the 6th grade, and figuring out you can make money from it in the 9th grade, I have craved and wanted to make money so badly off the internet. It was my constant thought, and at some points I was making small amounts of money from the internet while in high school. I had no negative thoughts in my head, and I know it for a fact, how badly I wanted it, and it came, when I dropped out, cause I never stopped, ever. I programmed day and night working my ass off to make money from the internet. If I wasn’t skateboarding, I was on my computer 24 fucking 7, literally… All the way from grade 6 to grade 12, I went through my VB phase, C++ phase, Hacking/cracking phase, Subseven phase, and ended up sticking with PHP/MySQL/XHTML/CSS… The fact that what I wanted and saw in my head so bad came true? Making millions off the internet… Now that’s not the only law of attraction moment that happened to me… The entire time I was making millions, the entire two years, I was worried, worried to lose it all, worried my site would die, worried I would get banned or cut off. Guess what, it happened, which goes to show that “All that we are is the result of what we have thought. The mind is everything. What we think we become.” — Buddha, so now you know how I did it, I had a vision and persevered. I hear two things a lot from people, I am ADHD and can’t ever concentrate (true), and that I am insanely persistent (true). If I want something, I never give up, ever… You must persevere, and I must continue to persevere, or I will never reach the top again. From these 4 years of experiences, I have lost a lot a faith in people, in relationships, my trust has basically been shattered, and have a hard time believing anyone anymore. People will say and do anything to get where you’re at. But if you want the fame, the money, that’s one of the consequences you must deal with, just keep you’re guard up. I feel I need to keep my guard up more, but that’s the story, that’s how I did it, and how I plan to do it again. Well it’s a little different now… beModel.com
Where it all went
What can I say, I was Young & Stupid – a book I am currently working on. Girls, cars, house, house upgrades, trips, toys, Vegas, strip clubs, taxes… Be smart with your money, invest it, don’t buy anything I did, I learned my lesson the hard way… Stocks, commercial real estate, accredited investor, hedge funds, IRAs, businesses, ugh, the list goes on… Not once will I let this happen again. The toys and Vegas trips were fun, but it ate my alive in the end.
The top is where you can finally breathe, and live to your fullest. Trust me.
Great thanks to my friends “Name Hidden For Privacy”, and Michael Bale for being there when I needed you guys, and helping me out.
Part 2: Young & Stupid: How I Lost My Millions
Old Andrew: Memories
I kind of felt like digging through some old photos, and I ran into these, figured I would just post them as a reminder to myself. I use to have it all, at one point in my life, and I must achieve it again. I had the money, the house, the cars, the last minute trips to hawaii, vegas, disney world, etc… and of course the girl.
It’s crazy how life can change so fast, how things can change so quickly, how you can be at the top, and then out of no where, right back at the bottom. It was probably the most difficult lesson I have ever learned in my life. Making 1.8 million pre-tax in a few years from the internet, and then all of a sudden, it’s gone.
I’ve met a lot of great people, been a lot of places, experienced a lot of things, and had my share of toys and life. It was a test, and still is a test I need to pass to reach the top again.
Frustration
I’m starting to notice no matter what I do, how hard I try, I can’t seem to get a grip, I can’t get a hold of myself, and I don’t know how to keep my emotions in check. Anytime it comes to my emotions, I can’t control them, I don’t fucking know why, but what the fuck. I thought I use to be so in control of myself, but obviously not.
I feel I’m losing it, I feel I’ve reached the bottom, and I am losing all control, an uncontrollable emotion that I can’t control anymore. I’m at the bottom, and it’s tearing me apart. It’s never been this hard for me, ever, this point, this time, this moment, it’s almost gone, everything. I have one thread left to save everything, and it’s a very thin thread.
I lost the women I was happy with, was played pretty good, by some close buddies of mine, not necessarily great friends, but close buddies… I’m living in my house with two roommates, and none of us can honestly afford the mortgage, so I might short-sale my house for a profit if I can find the right investor…
“When anger rises, think of the consequences”
I’ve been delusional for the last 3-4 years, I’ve built the habit of doing nothing equals something, and now doing nothing is second nature, and I can’t seem to break the habit, the habit feels like unbreakable, it feels like it’s built into me now. I keep getting this dirty burning feeling inside of me that craves someone, somebody close, I was so use to having somebody near me for the last 3-4 years… Now it eats me up inside, not having it, and not being able to force myself to focus is driving me to be insane. Especially while losing everything.
Where do I go, how do I pull forward, how do I squash my girly emotions, and move on. How do I break this deadly lazy habit of mine? I constantly feel tired, worried, and lonely. I play like everything is going okay, but really, inside I feel broken, torn apart, not even from love, just from myself. I feel humiliated to be honest, breaking down like this from such a pathetic event. I am not asking for sympathy, I am asking for advice, for help, for guidance.
I want to sell my house, cash out, and change everything. I want success, I want to fix myself, I want to be happy again.
Photobooth: Previous Sessions
Here are photos I’ve captured from my webcam from as far back as I can remember, maybe up to 5 months ago or so till today. Gonna do weekly-monthly photobooth upload sessions just for random blog posts here and there. I have a habit of doing a gay kissy face because I never know anything else to do… So enjoy the webcam pics!
Video: Quantum Jones On Hair
My buddy Quantum Jones is attacking my friend Jordan about his new hair-doo. None of them new I was recording I was kind of just doing my own thing working on my blog, listening to them in the background. Enjoy.
Photoshoot Video: JJ Meyer & Megan Page
This is a photoshoot we did with a friend of mine, she was looking to do a creative shoot. This was all her idea, and the photos came out great, here is a photo from the shoot. Enjoy the video, let me know what you think!
First Time At Jumpstreet
Jamie Glamour and myself decided to hit up Jumpstreet right next to my house, here are a few clips I recorded and edited on my iPhone, pretty neat huh?
Photoshoots: Newest Work
A collection of some of the photos I have taken in the last month, check em out.
Photoshoot: Luccia Cafiero
This was a photoshoot with the fabulous Natosha Cooke, and Luccia Cafiero. They are going to be submitting the photos to some makeup magazine. Let me know what you think of the photos!
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