Archive for the ‘Personal’ Category
How I Got Where I Am Today
Before I Get To My Public Speech, A Quick Recap
I am living proof that you don’t need to be a genius to make it. I am proof that all it takes is a constant burning desire to succeed to get somewhere. See, I’ve had this problem for the last six months, and it’s hitting me harder than a fucking rock. I don’t know if it’s my fixation of fixing myself, or if it’s a disease? Ever since I ended things with my ex Stella (first true love), I have had absolutely no care in the world for women. It’s almost if women are just a bare necessity to get by lately, is that wrong? I can’t stand the fact of starting over right now, trying to find a woman, trying to fill that void is just to much work right now, it’s too god damned hard… I have this dirty obsession, of becoming so big, I want to make a change, I want to be a man of value, a man of character, I want to die wise. I sometimes look at myself from the outside, and ask myself is this an unnatural obsession? Everyone else talks about partying, women, college, traveling, whatever… I think to myself, I must blow this business up, to invest into the next, so then I can build my ultimate Real Estate empire.
Whenever I am hanging out with a girl, sex barely goes through my mind, barely… Talking to a girl frightens me lately, nothing of importance or relevance to our current situation even comes out of my mouth. The only thoughts running through my mind are one of these; a) Money, b) Business, c) Success, d) Value (my value), e) All of the above. It’s actually been very damaging to me even trying to build a relationship with a women, so this is my ending clause; I retire from trying to continue anything of any value with any woman until I am satisfied with my own success. This may seem weird or odd, but the simple fact remains is that I cannot seem to care or focus on women, because the only thoughts in my mind are my businesses.
Back to the opening statement of this blog– “I am living proof that you don’t need to be a genius to make it.” You want to know why I am living proof, is because for one, I absolutely know I am far from a genius, I’m smart, but not super smart. With my constant drive, and positive thoughts of how well things will be, and how well things will go, I keep seeing this weekly change, and I mean every week I see something newer and better happening. Okay, I will backtrack for a minute. December, I raised two new investors in the nick of fucking time. I landed a video interview on Mixergy.com w/ Andrew Warner via Saad Milak. Andrew Warner opened up the doors to more exposure for me, landed me two other interviews with some other online magazines such as JuniorBiz.com. Which then led me to this blog article on me, which led me to push my book even harder than I already was. Your Hidden Potential actually inspired me to write my book faster, and to get it published quicker due to the feedback I saw from his readers. I am now 4 months away from publishing my first book Young & Stupid: How I Made And Lost Millions, which will actually land in brick and mortar stores, and online at Amazon.com.
All of this came from my pinnacle blogs I wrote back in November because I wanted to let it all out, and oh boy did I let it all out, I told everyone how I made millions, how foolishly I spent it and lost it, and how depressed I became. And oh boy was I depressed, want to know one of the biggest challenges you go through mentally when being at the top and losing at all? Mental stability of my security. I was once a man who could do and control anything I wanted, I became so insecure with myself, like not having money meant not being a man. So insecure, I pushed the girl I was in love with away. Pathetic right, it’s all mental though, and I’ve learned that. My pinnacle articles I then followed with this blog post; Seeking An Investor From $75k to $300k attached with my bio and an executive summary.
My e-mail box and facebook inbox blew the fuck up. I had 7 people looking at my deal, and probably 3 more looking for investors for me. Oh sure, I thought a lot of it was talk, but I always go with the flow, I always stay positive, kept in touch, and followed up with phone calls. I repeated on the phone maybe 10 times what beModel is, how it’s going to make it’s money, just pitching my idea left and right to these people who found me from my blog! I closed within a few weeks with two local investors who in fact found me from my blog, you two know who you are, and don’t worry, you two are in great hands. Amazing hands at that, I am about to make you and myself uber rich. I raised $125k via my blog. Impressive to say the least. Am I genius, or am I just a man with a goal, an intensely strong will, and a cute blog? I’m an ordinary man with extraordinary visions and reach. The point is, I wanted it so bad (The Secret in motion once again), and it happened, once again.
All of these events, all of these moments, all of my continuous persistence, inevitably led to this upcoming moment. (Law Of Attraction explains all of this)
My First Public Speech
Yes, inevitably led to my first public speech. What’s the big deal? Besides being my first public speech in front of 300 people, being flown to Washington D.C. w/ paid hotel, flight, and event access for the entire 4 days, I’d like to say it’s another stepping stone for the entire spectrum of my success. The event is Yanik’s Underground Online Seminar, event access is just $3,000. Yup, that’s right, if you want to attend this event, you have to fork over $3,000. Of course it’s absolutely worth it, it’s networking with millionaires, genius’ of all kinds in the internet business, and trade secrets you couldn’t learn elsewhere, last year the owner of GoDaddy.com spoke at this event. I just so happened to land the pre-day speaking event on March 11th, where I have to give a presentation for 45 minutes on my story, my entrepreneurship, and my experience with the internet. It’s meant to be an inspirational, motivational type speech, and I am actually quite nervous because I have never done a public speech in front of 300 – 500 people, let alone more than a few people? I actually wouldn’t mind hearing some feedback or advice from you guys on public speaking tips, if anyone has any. Go ahead and check out the details of this event here: Yanik’s Underground Online Seminar, if you scroll to the bottom, you’ll see me as one of the pre-day speakers.
I do know I have an interesting story to tell considering I’ve always been an internet guy, I know my way around the net, and I have a wide variety of knowledge in the internet world, I’ve made millions, lost millions, raised capital, and have built various types of websites, and done every form of advertising their is. I just need to make sure I convey the message inspirationally to the crowd with life. Wish me luck.
My Entrepreneurship
I’ve always been a man of honesty, a man of honest ethics, and honest morals. I bend the rules when needed, but never step on anyone. Well I guess in business, you’re always stepping on someone in the end. Taking business from someone else, and becoming the giant. Entrepreneurship is a lifestyle, entrepreneurship defines my number one characteristic, if singing or painting is the characteristic that defines you, entrepreneurship is what defines me, everything else comes after. Succeeding makes me happy, success makes my heart glow, reaching gives me that intensely strong will to pursue. Building companies, thinking of new ideas, raising capital, is what I crave. I am about to launch something new and revolutionary, I am going to make my investors incredibly rich, including myself. I’ve never felt a year like this one, 2010 has really had an incredible impact on me, It’s almost March 1st (about 2 months into the new year), and so much has accomplished, and so many stepping stones of been surpassed beyond measure. Alignment is in my favor this year, and it’s proven itself time and time again just this year. I am telling everyone right now, if nothing is going your way, turn it around right now, stop using dirty excuses, we all have excuses, all of us. I am telling you right now, it’s the burning desire and action you take on your burning desire to succeed that will take you beyond incapable and unexplainable measures. You will be saying to yourself how did this happen, how did I, Me, Myself land this position or opportunity… It’s clear to me, I don’t even need to ask it anymore, I know how I landed it, I know why, it’s because I deserve it.
You know your incredibly talented friend(s) who should be famous and rich for their abilities? Ask yourself, how come they aren’t? They are constantly drowning(being negative) themselves, and don’t think they deserve it, and don’t act on any desire they may have.
It’s time to step it up people. Pull out a piece of paper, and write your todo list, prioritize it, and get going. You want out of that 9-5, believe you can do it, and then actually act on it. I have faith in you.
Love,
Andrew Fashion
California Trip!
What a journey this was, a complete eye opener. Jamie Jones and myself flew to San Francisco to meet up with our designer / art director, who is taking on a huge project for us freelance, and the budget actually doubled, but is well worth it. San Francisco is amazing to say the least, not where I want to live, but definitely wouldn’t mind it at all, it’s so soothing, relaxing, peaceful, and at the same time alive. The place is gorgeous. The seafood is fucking incredible, gawddddd!!! Being there seriously made my heart feel so alive again, the environment, the people, the places, the seafood, the everything seriously sparked happiness inside of me. We met up with our designer that night and a buddy of mine Isa is in San Francisco, and joined the meeting as well. We met up around 10-11PM at Denny’s in downtown San Francisco, and it was such an amazing dinner. Absolutely eye opening, great conversation, and such life was in this quick pre-meetup, this wasn’t even our real meeting, and I could already feel the positive energy. The designer I selected to hire has got to be one of the most alive, smartest, driven people I have ever met in my life. You may have heard me say this stuff about people before, but I would hands down invest in this man myself with my last penny if I had to choose someone. I am 1000% confident in this guys abilities to bring beModel to another level for everyone. The ideas Jamie, myself, and Junior (our designer) were throwing around is just mind boggling. His intuitiveness is on another level, a different plateau than most could probably even fathom.
The following day Feb 6th, we had our meeting at Junior’s office, and his office is jaw dropping, he designed his office from scratch, his computer setup, his drive still amazes me every single day I continue to think about what we are getting into just makes me want to jump out of my chair with joy! Our budget went up, but for logical and purposely understandable reasons. We are bringing so much to the table with the new beModel for our customers, we are about to change the game this time, and for real this time. We now have the best art director in the world on our board of directors, along with an amazing web development team, along with the visions of Jamie and myself. I just happen to have been following this industry for almost four years now, so it’s safe to assume I know what needs to be done. After this amazing all day 12 hour meeting of brain storming, and boggling our minds, and number talk, Jamie and I enjoyed our last day in San Francisco. We were in San Fran from Feb 5th – 7th.
We then decided to take this time to relax and maybe do some traveling across California, why not right? Isa decided to come on our journey with us as well, since he lives in California anyways! Gave us time to think, brain storm, relax, and just all in all have a good time. We felt it was a good way to start the new year! We took the train immediately to Los Angeles, this was my first train ride ever, and it was FUCKING awesome. Trains have god damn outlets, why didn’t anyone tell me this before? I was tethering my iPhone to my MacBook Pro the entire 8 hour train ride from San Francisco to Los Angeles. I was geeking out, getting work done, emailing people, and webcamming with a sexy girl all at the same fucking time while on the train! I am going to try and make it a must that I take the train more often, it’s relaxing, convient, cheaper, and I can get work done on the go! It maybe be a little longer, but I don’t live by a strict schedule.
Jamie, Isa, and I arrived in LA, and immediately grabbed a cheap ass hotel in Hollywood, and walked the streets, and guess what happened, the night we arrived? We saw Ashton Kutcher walk across the street on the Valentines Day premier on Hollywood Blvd, no shit right? It was so full of life, people screaming and yelling “Ashton! Ashton! Ashton!” It was fucking incredible, he looked like such a god damn baller… There’s a little of my envy right there… Hah. To say the least, it was fucking awesome. Being in Hollywood makes me feel like something great is about to happen, literally, I feel like I am in the right place, I feel like I belong there, and I can’t fucking wait to get back. After that, we hit up The Grove mall, and god damn did I begin to feel nostalgic like crazy, this is the mall I went to every single day with Rose when I lived in downtown Los Angeles with her. I absolutely love The Grove, it is probably one of the most environmentally beautiful malls I have seen. It’s so god damn beautiful. We just looked around, and just inspired each other being in the place, talking what we are going to do, future plans, etc… A great feeling 
After this, we took a bus to Anaheim, and then a taxi to Laguna Beach where we tried to find the cheapest hotel we could, luckily we found an affordable one… Yes in Laguna, we found a cheap one, haha, believe it or not! Laguna was incredible, because a buddy of mine (Kris) I have never met from Huntington Beach came and picked us up, and we went and played pool, grabbed some dinner, and had some drinks, it was pretty damn fun. Kris is the guy I met online 4 years ago who got me into the MySpace business, essentially getting me into the game of being uber rich thanks Kris, haha. He took Jamie, Isa, and I to the top of the world in Laguna Beach, and jesus hell was this amazing. So inspiring, so beautiful, the view was incredible, even though it was evening, just seeing the dark ocean only a few miles away, standing next to multi-multi-multi million dollar homes, including the famous Wave House which we also saw. Eye opening, jaw dropping, and breath taking… I can’t describe the emotions that have been flowing through me on this entire 6 day journey, it’s life changing for me, because this is where I belong Thanks Kris for showing us around!
After this, we took a train to San Diego, where I lived for about 6 months with my ex-girlfriend Rose. We saw Jamies friend, and picked her up from USD- University of San Diego. Holy shit, this college is amazing, and fucking huge, surprised I never went and looked at it before… We went to Fashion Valley Mall, which is right where I lived with her, definitely an overwhelming feeling, once again, insanely nostalgic. I saw Rubios where I ate every single fucking day with her, I saw Dlush where I would get a smoothie every single day, I even saw the MAC counter in Nordstroms she worked at… I miss San Diego so much… Reminds me of when things were so easy, so right, ugh, almost overwhelming thinking about how I have been starting over… I was with her for three god damn years, okay, enough reminiscing, haha. Anyways, I would much rather live in Hollywood or Beverly Hills anyways.
Overall, this trip has brought me even to a higher point, a deeper feeling of what needs to be done. I am going to speed up this process, I am going to make a shit load of money and get my ass back to where I belong, and make all of my investors uber-rich, including myself. Persevere, work hard, the money follows. I feel it all, I feel it coming. When I fix myself, and get back on my feet, and clear away my problems, true happiness will follow. Hopefully a beautiful ladys pops up along the way, I could use a pretty girl
Just a rant about the trip, I wrote this entire thing on the plane ride back in just a few minutes, not going to proofread either, just going to post right when I land, hope you enjoyed!
<3
Andrew Fashion
Feeling Walked On
Okay so everything is absolutely amazing, I mean, business is booming, money is going to be pouring in soon. Everything has been on track this year perfectly, I finally feel so alive, I finally feel like things are heading the right direction. We’ve cut deadlines, cut costs, and found an amazing team, an amazing designer, and so much potential with what my partners and I are about to do. I am looking at running a multi-million dollar company within 1-2 years probably. I literally flipped my life around after my horrible break up with my first and only love I ever had, it was the closest to love I’ve ever been, literally. No, not Rose. It was the asian girl Stella I was dating, and I broke up with her repeatedly, and didn’t realize how much I really did love her till I lost her. Funny how life plays games on you like that, my insecurities ultimately led me to my downfall. As I am going to be writing about in my new book that will be in stores June of this year, Young & Stupid: The Story of How I Made And Lost 2.5 Million Dollars, everything I went through, how I made my money, how I lost, the insane depression I experienced was surreal. I have never lost so much, and felt so dispensable in my life, I felt like everything was coming to an end, and there was no getting back up. No matter how positive I was, negativity always followed. I don’t want to tell to much, because I want to save all the dirty details for the book, it’s really going to be quite the story.
Well besides all that, I guess what I am trying to get at is, everything is perfect right now. Everything is absolutely 100% perfect, and I am positively sure this year will be amazing, and I will fix all of my problems. I am so confident I will pick myself back up, and fix everything I’ve done to myself and lost. It’s quite the dramatic and hardest thing I’ve ever experienced in my entire young life, I’ve never felt something so detrimental and so heavy, so heavy I would tear in my eyes when I was alone. Sometimes when writing, I would start to cry. If I was writing this just a year ago, I would probably start tearing. That’s how heavy the pressure felt on top of me. Wanting so much out of me, but nothing left to give, not enough to fix everything, the pain was so rough.
Here I am one year later, standing tall, happy (I think), and fixing everything, cutting the unnecessary crap (people) out, although I am still slightly in some of the same positions (people walking on me). I really am trying my hardest to cut the users out, the people who just walk all over you, the people who are so negative they somehow make you feel like total shit. I feel that way now actually, which was the intent of this post. I feel so walked on, so used, I feel like such a tool. You know a tool, like just being used whenever needed? Yes, a fucking tool. Specifically speaking about the opposite sex of me actually, there a few of the same gender that I feel a little walked on, but mostly directed towards the opposite.
I feel so used, but I feel so strongly about the people who are using me. What do I do?
Renovatio Wallpaper
I thought this deserved it’s own post. My buddy Trevor designed this for me, Courtney Roxanne shot it, and Kelly Eden did the makeup. What a colab.
Download The Wallpaper
My Image Progression From 2005 – 2010
So here is the progression of me, from 2005 to January 2010. I tried my best to get these photo in chronological order, some of these photos may be off by a month or two. This should give you an idea of my progression, and how I changed. Shaved head in 2006, started growing my hair out November 2008, and got it pretty long, ended up chopping it off November 2009. I am now growing my hair out again. I got my first set of tattoos January 2010. All I need to do is get back in shape which I am working on.
It’s really amazing seeing the progression I went through, all these years. 2005 I was broke, living on my own barely making it by, as a high school dropout. 2006 my life changed, and I became a millionaire before the age of 19. I went through my ups and downs, and my share of relationships. 2008 I met my first love, and lost her of course. 2008 I also declared my depression, and started seeking counseling. 2010 I am now rising back to the top.
2005
2005 August: Curtis & Myself towards right before I started making money
2006
2006 February: Purchased first car ever, 2006 BMW 330xi $49 cash
2006 March: Rose & I in Hawaii
2006 April: Me wearing my new clothing like; Perfection Apparel
2006 April 20th: Me when I rolled off I-70 into the mountains
2006 May: Hired 2Advanced to build Drivable.com for $120,000
2006 July: Rose & I in Disney World, Florida
2006 September: Around the time I got into photography
2006 November: Around when I got into photography
December 2007: Photoshoot w/ Michael Vincent
2007
March 2007: Met Jamie Jones
2007 July
2008
2008 July
2008 August: Vegas w/ Stella
2008 September: After my Abs Diet, and moving back to CO.
2008 November
2009
2009 February
March 2009
August 2009
September 2009
October 2009
November 2009
December 2009
2010
January 2010
All of the photos, and then some
The Renovatio Has Been Born
A lot of you may not understand what I am about to say, but I have been reborn, literally. It may sound cheesy, it may sound cliche, it may sound invalid, but I have been. Why? Well I hit a point back in November 2009, where I told my self fuck this, it’s time to progress. Progression is changing, I told myself 2010 is the year for the Renovatio. Renovatio is latin for rebirth, and it’s more of just a word to remind me of who I am and what I can do, that I can pick myself back up, that I will pick myself back up. And surprisingly enough, minutes later, I raised $125,000 dollars for my company beModel.com. Literally a week before the new year.
January 1st I started my diet, and I have been on it perfectly since, I started P90X just a few weeks ago, yes I know you can’t see the results in the photo above, but don’t worry, you will soon! I was bloated that day, haha.
As you can tell, I got my first two tattoos just a few days ago, both in the same day, took about four hours.
My chest reads:
The Renovatio
My forearm reads:
a superior man is modest in his speech, but exceeds in his actions
Now here’s even better news, things just seem to be getting better and better. The new beModel is going to be up even sooner than expected, months sooner, instead of 6 months, were looking at 2 – 4 months now. Along with every single feature set Jamie and I wanted to implement into the system, so all I can say is that January has been a fucking amazing month.
I am also having my book published in June, that’s even more amazing news. The book will be done within a few months, and I will be sending out the revised manuscripts to close friends, and people who are legitimately interested in giving me feedback on the book can get a copy of the manuscript. I’ll go ahead and show you the book, because my blog readers deserve to see a sneak peak.
If you are interested in being notified of the book release, please go to my book websites @ Young & Stupid: How I Made & Lost 2.5 Million Dollars and subscribe! The book will be on Amazon.com and in stores nationwide.
I don’t mess around when it comes to getting shit done. Like I said, this is the year of the Renovatio. People, please don’t give up, don’t lose hope, if I can do it, you can do it. Stop dreaming, and reach for it.
Love,
Andrew Fashion
My Book Young & Stupid In Just 4 Months!
So I have been working my ass off on my book, I got really inspired to finally get my book going, and I have some great news.
My book is going to be finished within 5 months or less!
The book title is “Young & Stupid: How I Made & Lost 2.5 Million Dollars” or it might even be “Young & Stupid: An Autobiography Of Andrew Fashion.” I still haven’t decided on the tagline, so any suggestions I am open for. I currently have some connections to some potential real publishers, but I am still seeking an agent or publisher.
If I don’t find one, I will figure out a way to self publish this book myself I really wish I could show you the new cover, it’s so fucking gangster looking. The book is a story of my life, from the beginning till now, where my drive came from, what inspired me, and how I made all of my money, my life experiences, and how I lost all of my money. And how I am currently on my way back to the top. It’s to inspire, motivate, and give people ideas that you could easily do it too, and it’s just overall kind of a fun story, at least I think so Everything in the book is absolutely 100% true, and I tell everything, every single detail of what I did and how it was done, etc…
To give you an idea of some of the chapter outlines, these will most definitely be changing as well, but just an idea, and I am expecting around having a 150 page standard size book. Chapter breakdown:
Foreword
Introduction
Chapter 1: The Beginning
Chapter 2: Computers, Internet, & Video Games
Chapter 3: IS2S; I Skate 2 Skate
Chapter 4: Why I Dropped Out Of Highschool
Chapter 5: Living Alone At Age 17
Intermission Part One
Chapter 6: How I Made 2 Million At Age 18
Chapter 7: My First Love
Chapter 8: You Don’t Have To Be A Genius
Chapter 9: The Birth Of Andrew Fashion
Intermission Part Two
Chapter 10: How I Lost It All
Chapter 11: My Depression
Chapter 12: Rising To The Top
Intermission Part Three
BE PREPARED FOR JUNE this summer!
Let me know your feedback everyone, suggestions, or anything is strongly appreciated as I am writing the book, and editing right now
SO LET ME KNOW!
The Renovatio: Progression Is Change
So this year I decided to change things, a lot of things, from my perspective on things, to my work ethic, to my physical ability, to my health. I am still working on a lot of this, but as far as my health and physical ability, I have been doing the P90X course for 10 days now, and I have been on The Abs Diet for 20 days now. I have definitely seen and have gained results already, and it’s amazing feeling after working out, and eating right the entire day.
I haven’t ever really stayed this consistent with healthy eating and dieting before, so this is kind of a first. You looking for an amazing diet that actually doesn’t restrict you, that is easy to do, that will flatten your stomach, I live by this book like a religion. The Abs Diet. As far as P90X, I LOVE IT SO FAR, I don’t have to leave my house, it’s not expensive, you can get the entire course for free if you really wanted just off a torrent website, haha. I bought the DVD’s, the pull up bar, push up stands, a yoga mat, and some dumbbells, and that’s all you need. I am definitely seeing some increase in my arms, and my endurance already. The Yoga X day is the hardest I would have to say so far, but I am only on day 10 right now. I will post my results after day 30, day 60, and day 90. I took before photos, and before measurements.
As far as my work ethic, I have always been an entrepreneur, and have always worked on a computer. I am just trying to kick it up a few notches so I work more. I am trying to have a stricter discipline, and be a little more of an asshole as well. I’ve been walked on the last four years basically, and I’m done with it. So I am trying to get shit done now, I am sick of the trys, the maybes, and the lazy people.
Trying to grow my hair back out to this length
I get my first two tattoos this weekend, Saturday @ 4PM.
My forearm:
“A superior man is modest in his speech, but exceeds in his actions.” (one of my all time favorite live-by quotes)
My chest under my collar bone:
“The Renovatio” (Latin for rebirth)
I believe I have done an amazing job for the new year so far, I haven’t given up on anything yet, and definitely will not. My goals are to get beModel up within 5 months, pumping out revenue hard. Finish the P90X course, and continue to do it past the 90 days, and keep eating right. And of course get my ass to Los Angeles as quick as possible.
Tony Robbins said something like this, I altered it a little because I don’t remember exactly what he said.
progression is living, progression is change. don’t ever stop progressing, ever. change is automatic.
I am trying to progress, not really change who I am right? Makes plenty of sense to me. Progressing is advancing, and makes you feel so alive, progress is everything. Set goals, and keep going, don’t ever stop setting goals, just keep going. That’s what I’m doing
Love,
Andrew Fashion
What Have You Done So Far?
Wow, we’re already two weeks into the new year, things are moving quick apparently. This year is actually going great so far. I started my diet January 1st, and have been on it perfectly since, getting healthier, cleaning up the good ole body. Eating right is very important to me, especially because I am crazy about trying to be healthy and in shape. It’s a confident thing, a health thing, a feeling good thing. I also just started boot camp training, lol, P90X on Monday January 11th, and that’s seeming like it’s going to be amazing. So far the five days I have done it have been kicking my ass pretty damn good. Yoga is a bitch! It’s a 90 day course to get me insanely toned. I am also getting my blemishes fixed up, I have slight acne scarring (not tremendous or too bad at all), just want to fix up the light reddish scaring, so I’ve been seeing my dermatologist, and just finished my first laser appointment. Okay besides the healthy party of the new year, that’s just half of it. After taking care of myself, I can take care of business , and since my health is basically starting to feel like autopilot, which is good , I have been able to kick ass at working too.
I’ll be sure to post results of P90X from day 1, day 15, day 30, etc… Let’s hope it works good so you don’t just see my fat ass stomach
Now to take care of business. Somehow things just started to come together at the perfect time, and I closed a deal with two new investors right around the start of the new year! So I went into the new year with two new partners for beModel. It’s funny how perfectly I go into the new year with two new investors for beModel, along with all of my goals for personal achievement as well. It’s a perfect transition, because internally I am fixing me big time, and I mean big time. Changes are happening with me like crazy, realizations, fixes, mentally, everything in me is just growing and learning. At the same EXACT time, I am at the start of blowing beModel up like crazy.
So far in the first 15 days of the new year I have achieved 1) getting investors for beModel, 2) start my diet and stick to it, 3) start getting in crazy shape. Basically 3 of my major fricken goals for the beginning of the new year! Now all I have to do is 1) blow beModel up like crazy , 2) read more books, 3) move to LA, 4) sell my house and buy a new one, 5) find a quality girlfriend.
So let me ask you, what have you got done so far? Did you set a new years resolution, or so you were going to make some changes for twenty-ten, because I sure did!
I mean I guess that’s my new years rant for now on how things are going, enjoy!
Andrew Fashion signing out, the year of The Renovatio.
Dirty Envy
I guess this is something worth sharing. One of my best friends from elementary school has just enrolled into the military about a year ago. He has always wanted to be successful like I was, and make money like I did. He has always wanted to do projects with me, and so forth. Of course there wasn’t, and not much I could really do since most people don’t do what I do on the internet. Everyone I know wants to be like me because of what I have done, they think they can just hop on board, and just start making money from the internet. I am not trying to be cocky or flatter myself, but it’s something I have noticed from most individuals that approach me with an idea. (Anyone can do anything, I am just saying people that I know always pitch an idea like I want to build a website with you, let’s do it!)
Now that my old friend is in the military, he’s bigger, he is more arrogant and cocky than ever, and basically has his head up his ass. He has always been a mean person inside actually, but this just made him even more mean now. I know they say the military changes people, but not for the better apparently. It’s hard for me to respect someone who uses the military as a crutch, and he constantly uses it against me saying he is a “better” person, and that I have done nothing with my life except FAIL? Now just a few days before he had to depart to Afghanistan, and right after our GET RICH and move to Los Angeles dreams, he found out he got his girlfriend pregnant. Now they are married. (Now I am sorry, I can understand where some of his anger comes from) Well let’s recap the conversation he had with my friend Jamie Jones about me.
Okay, let me explain how the positive like myself think, and how the 9-5 negative think. A few notes before I explain what is going on here. Before he departed to Afghanistan, we hung out back in March, so about 9 months ago. He constantly said when he gets back he will have a lot of money, and he wants to start a company and invest together, and I said Okay, deal.” We were pretty close friends, but we have definitely had our share of bumps in the road with women. Not really small bumps either. But, we just let bygones be bygones. Over the course of the next 9 months he would casually call me and Facebook chat me from Afghanistan throughout the months, just chit chatting back and forth about life, investing, and how everything is out there.
Anyways, let’s get into this conversation so I can explain my side…
So finally, around Jaunary 1st, maybe a little earlier, he decided to start being a dick to me, out of nowhere. And on January 7th, he had this conversation with Jamie.
*1. This one is simple… “this kid has turned str8 bitch.” Okay so maybe I am sick of his pessimistic bullshit chats on Facebook about being realistic in life, and his arrogant attitude towards me, so yes, I stopped talking to him as much, and was short with him. Naturally this is what happens when someone starts to constantly be a negative asshole towards you. So “Name Hidden”, get a grip, and stop thinking you’re tough shit because you can throw grenades and shoot rocket launchers.
*2. “Rich ideas” huh? What is wrong with rich ideas? What is wrong with ideas of becoming successful. Sounds like we have a classic case of hypocrisy. I could of sworn 9 months ago, he was all about getting rich and moving to LA with me. Weird.
*3. Never worked a hard day in my life? Oh just because I didn’t go through boot camp like him, or work a landscaping job, I haven’t worked hard? I know that’s how he’s looking at it. There is two different working systems in America, working harder physically, or working smarter. I prefer to work smarter. Who built every single website for this kid to try and help him make money? I did? Who loaned him $2,000 for rent (yet to be paid back), who bought him a car to use for 6 months to help him out? I did. Never worked a hard day in my life? I have sat in front of the computer 1000x more hours than you learning how to program and build websites while you sat on your ass and played World of Warcraft, and logged over 100 days of play time. Once again, get a fucking grip.
*4. How many times have I failed? How much money have I blown? You’re absolutely right? “I didn’t fail the test, I just found 100 ways to do it wrong” — Benjamin Franklin bitch. “There are no secrets to success. It is the result of preparation, hard work, and learning from failure.” — Colin Powell. He is trying to tell me to give up because I have failed? Okay, that sounds logical, let me go find a cardboard box real quick. The money part is absolutely correct, I blown millions, want to read the story on how and why? Young & Stupid: How I Lost My Millions. It’s a classic story of making too much money too fast at a young age and not being financially educated.
*5. He then proceeds to attack Jamie because his father has made millions, and then tell him he will “probably fail just like him.” Not only has this kid learned how to throw grenades at enemies, but now he knows how to throw them at his own old best friends, cool. You’re right we could fail, I could fail, I could mess up again. Doesn’t mean I am going to give up. I will never give up, and lose my rich ideas.
I feel bad for you “Name Hidden”, I really do, that’s why I only tried to help you, and was willing to build a company with you. You told me you didn’t know what to do next so you enrolled in the Military like most people do who have no direction. I am not saying there is anything wrong with the Military (well that’s a whole different story), but when you use the Army as a “I am better card” on me, like you have grown up to be some super-god, you can go fuck yourself. You are no better than anyone, nor did the Army make you a better person. Your last resort was this, and when you found out you got your girlfriend pregnant, and now having a kid. It probably didn’t help your dreams of investing with me and going to LA. Now you’re stuck in Afghanistan throwing grenades, while you see me doing something that you wanted to be apart of. You did this to yourself, don’t fucking throw it on me.
I don’t usually like being an asshole, and most people know me to be to nice, but this is the last time I’ll let you belittle me like this. The only reason I responded to this conversation is to hopefully help you out, and show people how negative 9-5 workers are willing to give up so easy on their dreams. Entrepreneurs never give up.
This actually inspires me to see that I have a hater, and how he thinks I’ll fail
Visions In Motion
It’s so weird, actually, it’s bizarre how things are happening. I feel like it’s moving so slow, but everything is really happening so fast. It’s twenty-ten, and all of the investors for beModel are on board, the paperwork is done, and I am ready to move forward.
I have always been a fan of the Law Of Attraction, so much in fact, I made a Vision Board like they suggested. I put three fake checks written to beModel on my vision board, just 4 – 6 months ago probably. Guess what, I have had three real checks that have been written to beModel. It’s crazy, seriously… Everything else on my vision board is in motion, I can feel it, I am getting closer to everything I want. For example, I have a photo on my vision board of me when I was in shape, when I was on my healthy eating habits, etc… I was crazy about “The Abs Diet,” and now I am crazy about my diet and getting in shape again, getting closer to my in shape goal. The burst of motivation came out of no where.
I feel so incredibly good, so incredibly wonderful now, I feel I am getting closer to fixing myself, and stepping things up to another level. I honestly feel like I am going to get back in shape, be more confident in myself, and blow beModel up this year and at least make 500k this year, pay back my investors, and just totally kill it.
I have been on my diet perfectly this year, I know it’s only been 4 days, but my diet is a fucking chore. Check the book out, it’s amazing. It’s called “The Abs Diet.” It actually becomes second nature after a few weeks or so of being consistent.
The only reason I haven’t been keeping up on my blogging is because of the holidays, the new year, trying to get back on my diet… But I am back, I am here to tell the story, whoever is reading, you are going to see me go back from nothing to everything, this time totally exposed. I went from broke to rich, to broke… I lost everything, and now I am back up on my feet, and I am going to be blogging and sharing everything from personal, sexual (maybe- I’m not to sexual lately hah), to business. I will be sharing my entire journey. From creating beModel, the marketing, from me selling my house, to moving to Los Angeles.
This is my life, how I will pick myself back up.
Nikes, yay or nay? I’ve never once worn Nikes in my entire life.
2010: Hit The Ground Running
Quick Recap
2009 was an incredibly tough year for me, and probably for a lot of other people as well. I know I’ve posted a bit on what happened, kind of… I am not sure if I laid out any of the details of 2009, but it was really rough, and still is a little rough. Things are starting to look very good though, 2010 will definitely be the year of all years, this will be the year of The Renovatio. The funny thing is, my team can’t start till literally Jan 1st of 2010.
2009 was my breaking point. 2009 was the year I lost control, and almost lost everything, I practically did lose everything. I lost the girl and only girl I have ever fell in love with, I lost all of my cars, I lost all of my money, I was seconds away from declaring bankruptcy, and almost lost my house. Not to mention the loads of debt and stress I gained. I went through a mental breakdown, literally. It tore me up. I never really gave up on my dreams and goals, it just fucked with me emotionally for quite some time.
Right after all of this, I actually got screwed over by another girl just moments before all of this too. After I lost the girl I was in love with, I ran into another girl just recently, and actually really started to like this girl. It’s funny how shit happens, seriously, it’s fucking just funny. I guess funny is the only word I can honestly think of to explain how things just happen so randomly. You know what they say, when you aren’t looking, that’s when they pop up, and it’s so fucking true. The girl I fell in love with I ran into immediately after moving back from Los Angeles, and just shortly after losing her, I ran into the new girl I just recently lost. When I say lost, I broke up with them for whatever dumb reason I felt like breaking up with them. Anyways, the recent girl…
She was sleeping with me and talking to my friends behind my back. Yes, I said friend(s); plural. I’m not going to lie, I really did like this girl, and I will admit, I have trust issues with everything I have seen and experienced. She tried to pull the “it’s okay to talk to your friends, they are YOUR friends” card on me. “Oh ya? Behind my back, and you won’t even show me what you’re saying” I said. Immediately followed by “You have to trust me, I’m not a bad person.” I immediately jump to the obvious conclusion, and just the other day found out she did end up hooking up with him.
Leads to me to the conclusion:
You cannot trust anyone.
It’s so true, it really is. Personal, business, and even family. You must always keep your guard up. I have always been to nice of a person, over trusting (until recently). Like I said, and will always continue to say; I have seen, and experienced so much from the losses, the pain, and everything associated with these events.
People are dirty, and they’re are a ton of haters out there. I’m getting notoriously good at filtering out the bad, and only seeing the good. I can legitimately think of at least five haters who are pretending to be nice and like me, but trust me I know what they are really saying. You know who you are.
Hit The Ground Running
It’s funny, once again, it really is. I’ve lost it all, everything I once had. Everything is gone. I have a hard time even communicating with other women ever since losing the last two I was with. It’s like they pretty much broke me, and it’s like I am almost incapable of trying to even meet other woman. I just cannot meet other women, I can’t get phone numbers, I can’t get dates, I can’t get anything related to a woman right now. They all think I am unattractive right now or something?
It’s like a test, at least I like to think so. I have been striving to get back to the top, and raise this money. But with this test comes with a contingency; no women. Which is 100% fine. I am ready for this test. At the peak of everything, the peak of losing it all, my life has changed, for the better.
My reach for the top is in my hand, now I just have to utilize it right to get back there. I’ve raised $145k total now. This is it, this is my way to make millions once again. 2010 will be the year, the fucking year of The Renovatio, I will grow beyond any measure imaginable. An unstoppable force is near, success is seriously seconds away. Los Angeles, my new house, my island, true love, is only minutes away. I am so close, all I can focus on is getting to San Francisco to work with our Senior Art Director to get this project going, but I can’t get out there till Jan 1st. Jan 1st 2010 is the day, the beginning of a rebirth. I will take $145k and turn it into millions for all of my investors.
Destiny is no matter of chance. It is a matter of choice. It is not a thing to be waited for, it is a thing to be achieved. – William Jennings Bryan, 1860-1925
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Preparing, Planning, Goals
I know I have already posted something similar to this, but I want to remind myself and others about my to-do list, my goals, my plans. I have already hit a great majority of them as well, which is very inspiring to me.
It was actually really weird, I opened my notebook I always dabble my life goals, short term plans, long term plans, etc… I have always been someone to write my plans and goals down, always. And I always map out or try to map out as well as I can to get my short-term and long-term goals.
For example, today, I looked at my 1 year long term goal to accomplish by next winter, and I already have nailed two of the big ones that will let me achieve my 1 year goal. My 1 year goal was to be back in LA with a beModel Investor on board, and have my house sold. I already have the investor, two of them now, and some other small things in their done leading to the sale of my house. It’s like I write and think out my own future, it’s awesome.
Just so I don’t spill the entire list right now, I’ll tell you my goals for the next year or two.
The goals for now 
- Start the beModel Development ASAP
- Launch the new amazing beModel Website
- Start bringing a positive return within 12 months of launch.
- Sell my house and cash out a little bit if possible in the current market (which; recent sales prove to be)
- Be in LA before next winter
- Buy a new house in LA
- Invest in some commercial real estate
Women Are My Kryptonite
Women are seriously my Kryptonite. I don’t get it sometimes, I find it almost impossible to focus if something is going wrong in the women area of my life, and I hate the effect it has on me. See the thing is, I find myself constantly needing “a women” around, not saying that I call up any girl I can, and get her over. I don’t consider myself a slut who tries to pull late night booty calls, which I have, and probably almost every guy has.
I am trying to get myself to not need a women at all right now, to just be able to live life, hangout with friends, and work my butt off considering my partner and I just closed a $75,000 deal, with potentially another $50,000 coming.
See the photo above? 99% of the time, I am the guy with the girl in that photo, always having a girl. I need to be the guy walking forward, without the girl, fuck the girl right? At least, that’s what he’s saying, I don’t need a girl to define me, change me, motivate me, I am me he says. Haha, I know, I am using an Armani Ad for my explanation. The only reason I am posting this is to just open my eyes to what I let women do to me, whenever I blog about something, it’s a constant reminder because I stare at my blog all day.
I have been single for probably 8 months now, since my last girlfriend Stella, which was a brutal breakup, on my part of course being a complete dick and jackass to her. It took me a grip of time to get over her, a grip, and many many new women. I’ve dated quite a few women since her as well. Just last month I was dating probably the most gorgeous girl I’ve ever dated, well, second most gorgeous, Stella taking the lead, haha. This girl fucked with my head, and I hate it, why and how the fuck do I let “girls” fuck with my head. I know I am bigger, and better than that. Sometimes, and just sometimes I really feel like I let the women get control of me, like a little whipped puppy dog, well that’s pushing it. I never get whipped like a puppy dog, I am not that big of a pussy. But they really start to fucking get to me if things don’t go right. I guess I’m just a Taurus.
I am here to say fuck it, I am telling myself I am stronger than this, and don’t need women to define me. Considering the last women I liked a pretty decent amount, fucked me over for two of my friends behind my back (probably fucking one of them now), dirty little fucking whores. Sorry, I just needed to vent that out… Haha.
I will work my ass off, and that’s all I will do till beModel breaks the Alexa Top 1000 websites in the world. No women will change or fuck with me.
A Fresh Start, A Realization For Twenty-Ten
So 2010 is just 3 weeks away (24 days to be exact), Christmas is only 17 days away, and I am starting to get anxious, not for Christmas, but for the new year. I will admit, 2009 was an epic fail for me, I wrote a list, and accomplished none of it. Who said there was anything wrong with failure, I guess I should be happy I epically failed. Okay maybe not epically happy, but it was once again another lesson, a big one this time. I don’t think I have ever completed a new year’s resolution list actually. What is going to make 2010 different? A lot of losses happened for me in 2009, and it’s time to pick up the pieces, fix it all, and come back even stronger. Pick up the pieces…
Starting with me, realizing where I am, physically, mentally, emotionally. I am where I am at because of the actions I took, or another way of looking at it is this, some people believe what happens, happens for a reason. Fate, destiny, both words with simplistic meanings behind them, but to complex to talk about right now. Whatever the reason, however I did get here, I know where I am at, and what needs to be done. Realization, reality, it’s hit me hard, I know where I am. Me, who am I, what am I, what’s my passion, what’s my goal, where do I want to be. I am me, I am whole, I am complete, I know what I want, and I know where I want to be. I am me, and know exactly what I want. I’ve hit a point, a new level of understanding, a higher level of understanding. I feel like I just graduated internally. Hmmm, let me see how I can explain this. Hitting the bottom, almost to the point of declaring bankruptcy (more personal information revealed), I was literally in the attorney’s office. It dawned on me, not right away, just shortly actually. A sense of understanding, hope, a burst of intense hunger hit me. I don’t know if you were a reader of my blog before, but I was on and off with my blogs, start a few days, stop a few months, start a few days again, and stop again. This is the most consistent I have ever been with blogging. I love writing, I love venting, I love creating, I love helping, but never could stick to blogging for some reason. Now I didn’t let myself hit bankruptcy because I couldn’t let me get to that point, even though it would paint a new plate, with 10 years of visible fixed cracks in the plate, I couldn’t let me get to that. The overwhelming depression, anxiety, drive, the hunger that ate me up, built a new me, it’s hard to explain but it did. Humans are driven by two things, desperation or inspiration, plain and simple. I’ve always have been inspired, always, and always will be, but to be honest, I hit a point of deep painful desperation. The desperation in me, spawned something, something great, the desire to be great, the desire to fix it all, the desire to rise again, the hunger in me is like never before, like never before. I almost want to say let you get to your worst (long as you’re driven by desperation like I was) and watch how it changes it you, it’s incredibly life changing, breath taking, and so incredibly dangerously stressful, haha. I have hit a plateau, and rose above it. I know where I am mentally, mentally I have been reborn, this is why I call my blogging The Renovatio. This is why I believe I can pick up the pieces, this is why I believe I will actually follow through with my 2010 New Year’s Resolution List, this is why I know I will be at the top next year.
New Year’s Resolution List For 2010
This will be a combination of business and personal, I’d rather not split it up into two right now.
- beModel.com to break Alexa top 5000
- To gain 2000 subscribers on my blog
- To get strictly back on The Abs Diet
- To move to LA before next winter
- To read more often
- To step up my photography to the “professional” level
In A Nutshell
That’s really all that I would like to complete for 2010, if I can complete that entire list, I will be fully satisfied with myself, and of course crave more once I complete the list . I’ve already discovered me, my passion, and where I want to be. I know who I am now. It took 2.1 Million, losing it all, depression, many women, and to the point of declaring bankruptcy. Like any success story right? Seems like a lot of successful people have the same thing in common, Robert Kiyosaki andDonald Trump, just to name a few. Now I know why this recognizing trend is in so many success stories, it’s true what happens. As Robert said in his Rich Dad Poor Dad book as well, when he was living in his car with his girlfriend, he reach a sense of realization that drove him, desperation. Hitting solid rock bottom transforms you, like metamorphosis; a complete change of form, structure, or substance, as transformation by magic or witchcraft.
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